winter

The winter blew in too hard this year, bringing it's thick, icy blanket covering streets and houses, sneaking into our souls and over our eyes. As every year my degree of feeling dropped with every snow flake that fell, leaving me close to emotionless at the end of the winter. Years I wondered if this was a permanent condition, something I wasn't going to shake off, only to suddenly realize it's one of the downs that comes with the season. The snow and frost seem to be able to isolate ones heart, crashing in unexpectedly and swallowing it whole. So once again I sit and watch me fade away, not being able to fully listen and participate in conversations, often wondering what i've been doing, restless. Every feeling and thought feels subdued, half complete, it just can't reach my brain anymore. Untill these little moments where I briefly wake up from my deep winter sleep and try to walk west instead of east, looking into the few new rays of sunlight. Only to realize it's not really quite there yet and slowly drift back into a deep slumber, waiting for summer to bring it's sunshine, blinding the dissatisfaction and emotionlessness from my eyes.